I thought I had Friday free too but it's N's last day at work and all the Micro girls are going to Burnside for coffee at 3 or 4. I'll have to show up for that na *_*; I'm going to miss N so much when she's gone. She and MA are the only people at work I've become real friends with. She keeps telling me to move to brisbane XD;; She's threatening to send me information on every job she hears about when she's there. *sigh* I'm going to miss my N like I miss my Tammy Tam Tam. Except for age they really were almost exact replicas of each other [I'm willing to bet a million dollars that in 10 years time Tam WILL be N]. Vaguely annoying in the same ways. Highly entertaining in the same ways. Both extremely talkative. Both had some strangely high opinion of me for reasons I cannot fathom. And they both up and left me, one for Townsville and the other for Brisbane. I wrote the university essay for one [because she has iffy english. shhhh I know that in this blog I'm the queen of typos and grammatical errors, but I can do things right when I try ^^;] and the initial application for the other [because she also has iffy english]. Everyone is leaving me behind ^^;;;;;;;

I'm on a terrible terrible Jrock download spree right now. There are 40 to 50 mp3s on my download manager waiting to load n_n;; Transtic Nerve, Glay, L'Arc~en~ciel, Penicillin, Shanza, Plastic Tree Porno Graffitti, Camui Gackt etc. Aiiiiiiii I like Siam Shade's Bloody Train very much *slaps it on repeat* It's been a long time since I downloaded so many japanese songs [and no Matt, don't jump around. I'm not leaving my Kpop obsession yet >=D].

Brisbane won the Grand Finals. Ah, so sad, my Port Power didn't get there. So sad *still mourning* But since Collingwood didn't win Dad is taking us out for dinner. ^^; He hates Eddie McGuire.

I'm starting to watch Initial D Second Stage again. I didn't manage to get past the second episode the last time I tried because other things swamped me. Bleh =p; How come one race can last so many episodes? ^^; How long does it take to drive down a hill?

Ah, that reminds me =O I read volume 3 of the Initial D manga. Everyone seemed to be complaining about the name changes before but it's not really bothering me '_';; i'm quite happy with the english names except that Takumi is now "Tak" and Tak is such a stupid name ^^; It makes me think of Thumbtacks (T).

I watch so little anime now and read so much manga [so very much manga]. It's strange ^^; I used to want to watch absolutely everything, and buy masses of soundtracks. When did I make that switch '_';

I read Peach Girl 4 though. Yay, I finally got to read the next volume. grrrrr Sae, I hate Sae grrrrrrr. And Kiley grew his hair ;_; He looked better with shorter hair, I was highly disturbed by the pictures of him in a nurses uniform [which i suppose means I'm well and over the weird yaoi phase I went through ages ago. Actually come to think of it that phase only really pertained to Gundam Wing X_x; And then when I finally saw the actual show I got bored and lost interest. it was the fandom that sucked me in. just like with WeiB Kreuz before it]. I couldn't tear my eyes away. I didn't buy it tho' 'cause I already pre-ordered it from Tamarket ^^;

i set up my Gamecube on the big tellie upstairs and restarted my game =D but it was 10pm and Dad turned out all the lights and I freaked out and came down here XDDDDDD I was still at the beginning, where the first zombie appears and I was standing in the corner going "I'm going to go in!" and then not X[;;;; I'll play tomorrow when there's light, sissy Mary. XP;

I'm going to study at my desk now so i can watch the fishies *_*

I also have Kurukuru kururin for GBA because Kmart were having a clearance and it was $30 XD:;;;;; I haven't played yet na, but it looks so cute

Ah, now that I have this there are just 2 gamecube games I am very heavily waiting to arrive: Animal Crossing (cute cute cute!) and Skies of Arcadia Legend. 8Q

*mumbles* the cover letter isn't even important in this case *mumbles mumbles* referances? I can't put down D.... because I'm applying to D for the job.... *mumbles* this is stupid and I'm even stupider for complaining *mumbles* Guess where I'm getting help to write these things? So You Wanna Write a Cover Letter? XD;;;;

Joey, Miko:

'='
I was tormented by dreams of fish lipped men and it's all your fault.

I'm also going to try to polish up my resume tonight, the one I wrote up at the beginning of the year looks highly crappy >_>;;; I have decided what to do with myself now, thanks to the advice of numerous people. I'm going to apply for this part time job which will hover to full timeness while V is on maternity leave and forget about the UK thing for now. Hopefully I'll get it and be able to use it to tide me over until I can get work somewhere else. Most preferably Melbourne. I greatly wish to leave Adelaide ^^; Sydney is an option too I suppose but I don't really like it there.

I think they job will go to either MA or I '_'; The supervisor has made it blindingly clear that she wants one of us ^^; She's hurling promises and concessions at us. That we can have holiday when we want it. That we can choose our hours. That everything is negotiable. I think she's just too lazy to train someone new. So it depends on whether MA applies or not because she's been there 6 months longer than I have and she knows more PCR than me. I've only just begun training. So if she applies I think she will get it =] I just don't know whether she will or not since I know she wants out of the company quite badly ^^; If I don't get it I'll just cling to my casual job until I find something else. Anyway, I have to write a crappy cover letter (I don't even know how?) and give my (revised) resume. Who's good at writing resumes? Want to give me tips?

My workplace advertised a part time job in micro in the newspaper on Saturday and my supervisor asked me to apply [she is the one hiring]. But I don't know. It's only part time, and as a casual worker isn't that what I'm doing now anyway? Plus I lose my casual rate and I'll earn less. I considered applying, but I want a full time job and my supervisor knows it '_' I wish I could talk to MA about it but I don't think I'll see her anytime soon. What my parents are now suggesting is that I work for the agency in the UK for 6 months after Uni finishes and then come back home and look for a full time job in Melbourne or Sydney. I don't know =_= Suddenly they're so keen on me going and the keener they are the more I'm scared to go. All the usual stupid fears: "what if I go there and don't make any friends?", "what if I go there and hate it?", "what if I get lonely?" I really don't know what I want anymore. I'm such an indecisive prat ^^;

I know in the end that I won't stay in my current work place long. I love my job currently, I may have a new not so favourable view on some people there now, but I like the job itself. However I'm techical help, and will remain as such for a long long time there. My friend did the same course as me and she's been working there 2 years. She does almost everything but they still classify her as technical help. They still don't acknowlegde her science degree. So in the long term it isn't really an option is it? I don't want to be stuck in a place where people above me feel so easily threatened by the people they hire. Esp with D. I understand her position. Her job is not stable, the bigbig boss didn't want her as his first choice he didn't think she could do the job. But in the end no one else applied or was suitable and he was stuck with her. So now she's "easily replaced". If someone better comes along she'll be knocked back down to second in charge. So I understand why she looks out for herself and tries not to let others learn too much. Anyone else would do the same and I can see her doing it to the new second in charge.

But that's no good to me is it? I don't want to end up like N and look back on what I've done in 2 or 3 years time and suddenly realise that I'm in practically the same position I was in when i graduated. I'm too scared of that happening. I'm really scared I won't get any higher and be stuck a miserable technical officer forever. But I'm even more scared of being unemployed when I graduate. Should I take a punt at that stupid part time job anyway? Even if I get it I'll be whoring my resume at every lab in sight until I find something full time. But even then I can't rid of myself of the feeling that I'm being a bad person by accepting one job and then trying to find something else as quickly as possible. I feel like I'm leaving someone in the lurch and it doesn't sit comfortably with me. it's a feeling that everyone tells me I must get rid of in order to get ahead, but I can't seem to do it.

Mary is very happy

Port Power lost last night ;_; I'm so upset

OMG stupid Silent Winds layout doesn't work right on PC and stupid sungaholic layout shows gaps where there shouldn't be gaps. I'll have to fix then both when I go home tonight.

You know what? I'm starting to miss my blue streaked hair.